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Monthly Archives: August 2014
My Chronic Pain in a Nutshell
It’s rare for me to find a post that so poignantly expresses what life is like as a sufferer of chronic pain, but this one touches on everything, how it affects physical and mental states, as well as “real-world” functioning … Continue reading
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fine
“Have you tried hypnosis?” I’m so used to the way I am now, wearing the brace, walking slowly to maintain my posture, using a special cushion to support my back, that I had forgotten that most people only see the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged anger, chronic pain, disability, friend, good intentions, misinformation
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space and the wheel
Today is the beginning of a new experiment. Last night, I went to a party and stayed out very late. I haven’t stayed out that late in nearly a year; I’m not even sure what I was thinking when I decided … Continue reading
aspects
My regular readers may have noticed a new categorization in the side bar, called Aspects. This is because I feel as though I’ve entered a new phase in this experience, and it seemed important to make some sort of acknowledgement … Continue reading
done and next
Another visit to the pain management doctor. Another handful of prescriptions, after another diagnostic scan that showed nothing. Nothing. I received a detailed MRI, called an arthrogram, of the entire underside of my scapula and surrounding tissues, and it revealed precisely … Continue reading
open letter to god
Hey there, it’s me, your favorite kicking can T.G. Ape. I know you know what’s going on with me down here, so there’s probably no point in a recap. Suffice it to say that it’s been pretty crappy, for a … Continue reading
stasis
I woke up this morning with the same pain I went to bed with last night. Yesterday, after a couple of hours on the beach, it was so bad that all I could do was lie on the recliner in the condo with … Continue reading
bitten
Well, we’re on day four here at the beach and my busted wing has finally settled back down to its pre-trip pain level; a four or five in the morning, up to a six or seven by the evening, depending … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged appearance, coping, disability, life change, self loathing, self love
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wherever you go
I, and my pain, are now at the beach. Momma Ape and I drove separately from the rest of the family yesterday, leaving an hour and a half early so we could could take a few long breaks and still all … Continue reading
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Tagged chronic pain, coping, depression, life change, self loathing
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answers (1)
As requested, this is the first in what will be an intermittent series of answers to Miss Emily‘s questions, in no particular order: 4. List 11 facts about yourself. 1. My fingernails grow really strong and really fast. When I was … Continue reading