Tag Archives: chronic pain

done-ing

Posted on February 14, 2022 by C. M. Condo

*this post contains profanity I’m doing trauma work with my therapist, starting with an event in my childhood that I’d only recently started calling a trauma, even though I remember it clear as day despite it having occurred when I … Continue reading →

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The Last 5 Days, or How Not Treat an Autistic

Posted on November 13, 2020 by C. M. Condo

For the last two months, my search for a pain professional who accepted Medicaid and was willing to work with my autism medication regimen had resulted in my being disbelieved, belittled, insulted, and dismissed by uncaring and uninterested neurotypicals at every turn. Continue reading →

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placeno

Posted on September 15, 2018 by C. M. Condo

“The chronic pain placebo responders also were emotionally self-aware, sensitive to painful situations and mindful of their environment.” – Science Daily Sugar pills relieve pain for chronic pain patients: Placebo benefits can be predicted by brain anatomy and psychological traits … Continue reading →

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supposed

Posted on March 4, 2018 by C. M. Condo

I have run out of energy. Again. Just like I did this time last year when they changed my schedule and switched my days off. Except – I don’t have that excuse this time. But I called out of work … Continue reading →

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can’t

Posted on April 1, 2017 by C. M. Condo

What does it mean when you say you “can’t” do something? Sometimes it is literal – I literally can’t do a handstand. But often it is more subtle, meant to impress a sort of finality despite the lack of a literal … Continue reading →

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Book One

Posted on January 13, 2017 by C. M. Condo

This marks the end of Book One and the beginning of Book Two.  To read Book One in its entirety from the beginning, click here.

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dare I think

Posted on February 2, 2016 by C. M. Condo

Hey TGA, why haven’t you posted about your pain lately? Indeed, why haven’t I? It’s not like I don’t still have it. But it’s crossed a line, now, into that previously elusive territory known as “manageable.” Of course, I’m wary of … Continue reading →

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scars

Posted on January 20, 2016 by C. M. Condo

They don’t match. That was my first thought as I sat on the edge of MS Ape’s bathroom sink, my back to my reflection, peering into a make-up mirror to compare the barely-knitted slices on my left scapula to the … Continue reading →

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getting to work

Posted on June 10, 2015 by C. M. Condo

So now I have officially graduated, and have been back to work in the lab for a little over a week. The days are long, but my shoulder, while not entirely pleased, has thus far refrained from laying me out … Continue reading →

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excepting expectation

Posted on April 16, 2015 by C. M. Condo

Last week’s pain crisis is now behind me. I’m still quite run down, and unable to do much which either arm, but pain is no longer crowding out concrete thought. Yesterday, the surgeon examined both of my shoulders and affirmed … Continue reading →

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