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unsettling
I’m officially, completely unpacked. All boxes have been emptied, everything I’ve decided to keep has found a home, either here or in my storage unit, pictures are hung, and box cutters, tape, markers and tool kits are finally put away. … Continue reading
the door
This past weekend, I received an e-mail from the rock star researcher who has been heavily recruiting me for his extremely prestigious – and formidable – lab. He suggested I attend a talk by one of his grad students concerning a … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged doubt, graduate student, hope, nerve ablation, orthopedist, surgery
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to try is not to do
It’s a little after 5:00 AM. I’m up because I want to be, though, not because I have to be, although as soon as the wake-up light nudged me from a disturbing dream in which I kept running in and … Continue reading
says who
Saturday morning, I went to the drugstore to pick up a refill for one of my pain medications, only to discover that there weren’t any refills left on it. This particular medication is the linchpin of the chemical arrangement that … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged disability, fear, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain, orthopedist
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depress
depress |diˈpres| verb [ with obj. ] (1) make (someone) feel utterly dispirited or dejected: that first day at school depressed me. (2) reduce the level or strength of activity in (something, esp. an economic or biological system): fear of inflation … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged chronic pain, coping, doubt, orthopedist, physical therapy, self care
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closing in
Almost, but not quite. That’s what this week has been. A series of discoveries that things that I thought were OK are still not right. Things I thought had been fixed were still broken. A personal life that I thought … Continue reading
questions
Miss EmilyAnnaB, one of my favorite bloggers, recently sent me a parcel of nice questions to answer, about things that have nothing to do with my shoulder. Those answers will be forthcoming later this week. I like being given questions I can … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, chronic pain, good intentions, humor, orthopedist, physical therapy
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mind vs. truth
It’s 7:30 AM and I do not want to be awake. I’ve been up since around 5:15 (5:12, to be exact), and while I did manage to doze fitfully until 6:45, the sharp stabbing under my right shoulder only permitted … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged chronic pain, doubt, healing, insomnia, nerve ablation, orthopedist
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blues before and after (part 2)
Instead of talking about what the new specialist did yesterday afternoon, I’d rather talk about what he didn’t do. He didn’t talk down to me. He didn’t brush my symptoms aside. He didn’t see “nothing remarkable,” about my shoulder. He … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, chronic pain, coping, depression, doubt, hope, insomnia, orthopedist, specialist
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