Category Archives: loose leaves

recuperation

Posted on July 22, 2021 by C. M. Condo

The Ape is on hiatus to recover from a surfeit of anxiety and stress, and will return in Fall 2021.

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finally

Posted on April 26, 2020 by C. M. Condo

Finally, a neurotypical experience that mimics autism: ‘Zoom fatigue’ This article discusses how taxing social interaction is over video platforms because of challenges in interpreting unspoken information, which may be obscured or absent due to teleconferencing platform issues. Critically, it … Continue reading →

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can’t

Posted on April 1, 2017 by C. M. Condo

What does it mean when you say you “can’t” do something? Sometimes it is literal – I literally can’t do a handstand. But often it is more subtle, meant to impress a sort of finality despite the lack of a literal … Continue reading →

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wilderness

Posted on March 16, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“Carpal tunnel” What? “There is nothing wrong with your ulnar nerve.” The neurologist spoke in the soft, mixed British-Asian accent of highly educated students from that part of the world. “It is all median nerve. Carpal tunnel.” Never mind that … Continue reading →

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peach-pink

Posted on January 30, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“You know it’s dangerous for someone like you to take opiod medications.” My head was in my hands as I rocked back and forth in the chair across from the neurologist. “I know, I know…” I moaned, “…but I just can’t … Continue reading →

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again

Posted on January 29, 2017 by C. M. Condo

Last night I did not sleep. The pins and needles and burning in my hands are now unchanged by any sleeping position I can discover. I tried taking nearly every medication in my night stand – insomnia, nerve pain, muscle … Continue reading →

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not so small

Posted on January 22, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“Trace the exact path of your pain for me.” I sit on a padded exam table facing the neurologist, having passed the slew of tests to determine if the pain and numbness in my hands is due to something in … Continue reading →

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here

Posted on January 15, 2017 by C. M. Condo

The pain is still here. It is a different kind of pain, responsible to different nerves, reducible by certain shoulder positions, exacerbated by many more others. It is accompanied by numbness in my fingers and concomitant tingling followed on its … Continue reading →

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