Category Archives: loose leaves

recuperation

Posted on July 22, 2021 by C. M. Condo

The Ape is on hiatus to recover from a surfeit of anxiety and stress, and will return in Fall 2021.

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whiteness

Posted on July 22, 2020 by C. M. Condo

The African American History Museum was forced to take this down due to complaints about it. I have thus recreated it from pieces on the internet and am preserving it here for posterity. The image is downloadable.

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we did the right thing

Posted on July 3, 2020 by C. M. Condo

We did the right thing. We washed our hands, didn’t touch our faces (we think), limited grocery trips to once a week, stopped seeing our families, our friends, our loved ones. We wore masks religiously. We practiced patience even as … Continue reading →

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Black Lives Matter

Posted on May 28, 2020 by C. M. Condo

I am autistic. I suffer a great deal because of it. But. I can hide my autism from other people. I can disguise myself as a neurotypical. Non-white people have no such privilege, no such security. In this country, their … Continue reading →

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finally

Posted on April 26, 2020 by C. M. Condo

Finally, a neurotypical experience that mimics autism: ‘Zoom fatigue’ This article discusses how taxing social interaction is over video platforms because of challenges in interpreting unspoken information, which may be obscured or absent due to teleconferencing platform issues. Critically, it … Continue reading →

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you break it, you buy it

Posted on March 26, 2020 by C. M. Condo

Photo by Sergi Ferrete on Unsplash It is extremely rare that I come across an article that I think explains a point of view with more clarity and poignancy than I ever could. The article indicated below, however, more than … Continue reading →

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can’t

Posted on April 1, 2017 by C. M. Condo

What does it mean when you say you “can’t” do something? Sometimes it is literal – I literally can’t do a handstand. But often it is more subtle, meant to impress a sort of finality despite the lack of a literal … Continue reading →

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wilderness

Posted on March 16, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“Carpal tunnel” What? “There is nothing wrong with your ulnar nerve.” The neurologist spoke in the soft, mixed British-Asian accent of highly educated students from that part of the world. “It is all median nerve. Carpal tunnel.” Never mind that … Continue reading →

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peach-pink

Posted on January 30, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“You know it’s dangerous for someone like you to take opiod medications.” My head was in my hands as I rocked back and forth in the chair across from the neurologist. “I know, I know…” I moaned, “…but I just can’t … Continue reading →

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again

Posted on January 29, 2017 by C. M. Condo

Last night I did not sleep. The pins and needles and burning in my hands are now unchanged by any sleeping position I can discover. I tried taking nearly every medication in my night stand – insomnia, nerve pain, muscle … Continue reading →

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