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Tag Archives: appearance
the default myth
Photo by Markus Spiske One of my opportunities as a professional editor for primary research articles and dissertations is they are often primers on subject matter on which I am not an expert. A dissertation I edited last year introduced … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 3
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, BlackLivesMatter, effort, faith, systemic racism
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is like
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 3
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, Aspergers, autism
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what doesn’t kill me (isn’t going to work)
Surprising no one, my first application for disability was denied. In researching next steps for an appeal, I discovered that one of the things the committee considers, although not in so many words, is whether my disability will kill me. … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 3
Tagged actuallyautistic, anger, appearance, Aspergers, autism, disability
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not like this
Photo by Laurent Perren on Unsplash This is not what I wanted. High-functioning autistics like me who live alone and work from home fight a constant battle against expected levels of socialization. We have to self-limit because of how exhausting … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 3
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, ASD, Aspergers, autism, doubt, fear
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Interview on LearnFromAutistics.com
Click the above to read Christine’s interview on the Learn From Autistics website about accommodations , autism coping strategies, and self-care.
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 3
Tagged accommodations, actuallyautistic, appearance, masking, self care
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that look
If you’re autistic, you know exactly the look I’m talking about. It’s the one you get from a neurotypical person when you step outside the prescribed boundaries for casual interaction. You’ll be going along hiding your autism well enough and … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 2
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, Aspergers, doubt
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see me
This past semester, my final project was a paper that explored the interface among autistic media portrayals, stereotypes, disability laws, and lived experiences. I discovered that I am not unique in the amount of effort I expend to appear neurotypical. … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 2
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, autism, coping, disability, neurodivergent, neurotypical, self care
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The Chariot
If it’s easy, then it’s the right thing. If it’s hard, then it’s the right thing. What is the right thing to do? It feels like it should be a simple question; a binary question, no less. Some things are … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect III
Tagged appearance, confusion, disability, doubt, graduate student, invisible disability
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learning, fast and slow
Well, that didn’t take long. Even though the surgery was less than a month ago, I was back in full-on, Type-A Ape mode in the lab last week, happily doing whatever was asked of me, including a generous complement of … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect III
Tagged appearance, busyness, graduate student, healing, learning, self care
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terms
I have a new most hated phrase. It is “living life on your own terms.” It’s always touted as this thing to aspire to, as though it takes some special strength or perseverance to achieve it. As though it is something to … Continue reading