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Tag Archives: graduate student
one who cares
I had the privilege of attending the National Science Writers Conference this weekend, which was conveniently about a forty minute drive from where I live. The membership heavily tilts toward science journalists, but theoretically includes anyone in the science communication field, and … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 2
Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, graduate student, misinformation, plain language, science, science writing
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swamped
I was thoroughly tired of school, after getting my second bachelor’s in 2015. I was tired of how it seeped into every crack and crevice of spare time I had. I was tired of telling friends “I can’t, I have … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 2
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Aspergers, fear, graduate student, life change
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handle
I am back in graduate school once again, this time in a writing program as opposed to a science-based (or rather, laboratory bench-based) program. During the first class last week, the professor warned us, as if I needed the warning, … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 2
Tagged actuallyautistic, Asperger, doubt, graduate student, misunderstanding, writing
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The Chariot
If it’s easy, then it’s the right thing. If it’s hard, then it’s the right thing. What is the right thing to do? It feels like it should be a simple question; a binary question, no less. Some things are … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect III
Tagged appearance, confusion, disability, doubt, graduate student, invisible disability
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excepting expectation
Last week’s pain crisis is now behind me. I’m still quite run down, and unable to do much which either arm, but pain is no longer crowding out concrete thought. Yesterday, the surgeon examined both of my shoulders and affirmed … Continue reading
apprehend
apprehension |ˌapriˈhenSHən| noun 1 anxiety or fear that something bad or unpleasant will happen: he felt sick with apprehension | she had some apprehensions about the filming. 2 understanding; grasp: the pure apprehension of the work of art. 3 the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect III
Tagged anger, chronic pain, disability, doubt, fear, graduate student, surgery
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and for how long
The pain is no better. I won’t say that it is worse. It may be, but I don’t want to go there. At the behest of my physical therapist, I contacted the head researcher of my lab to let him … Continue reading
can’t and don’t
I’m not going to sugarcoat it for you. It is what everyone says it is. If you want to know how to maintain a work-life balance, I have to tell you, it’s impossible. What I would say is you should … Continue reading
learning, fast and slow
Well, that didn’t take long. Even though the surgery was less than a month ago, I was back in full-on, Type-A Ape mode in the lab last week, happily doing whatever was asked of me, including a generous complement of … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect III
Tagged appearance, busyness, graduate student, healing, learning, self care
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happening
My surgery is scheduled for four days from now. I spent my spare post-holiday hours drilling down on the research, gathering what few common factors I could glean from the various case studies. I brought my resulting bevy of questions in for … Continue reading