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not my fault

As I read more and more about my autism (for new folks, I was recently diagnosed with Asperger’s, an Autism Spectrum Disorder or ASD), I am, for the first time in my life, seeing my life experiences clearly. All of … Continue reading

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it’s too much

I don’t know what to write here. Words on a screen are too thin and ephemeral to fitly describe the weight and depth of what I feel inside. My loneliness, barely managed under the best of circumstances, has been flushed … Continue reading

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incertainty

That used to be me, I thought. It was as though I was speaking of some time of my life long since gone, like childhood, not the “me” that I was up until late last year. The jogger passed me … Continue reading

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patiens emptor

Back in October, I saw an orthopedist for pain in my shoulder that was radiating up into my neck. He diagnosed a pinched nerve in my cervical spine. He ordered an MRI of my cervical spine. It did not show enough … Continue reading

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team of one

My impressive run of cookie successes has been broken by the deceptively simple bar cookie. Two batches have had to be thrown out, and a third seems destined for a similar fate.  The center remains in a near raw-cookie-dough state, despite being baked for double the prescribed … Continue reading

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house-hunting

I was speaking to a friend on the phone a couple of days ago. She also has physical issues that require pain medication, and every two or three weeks or so, she’ll swallow a handful of pills, drink a lot … Continue reading

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relative importance

Yesterday, I did a whole bunch of things I shouldn’t do with my right arm, including moving some furniture. I can’t support anything for any length of time, but I was able to coax out bursts of strength that enable … Continue reading

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the not-so merry-go-round

It’s been such a long week. I don’t know why I keep saying that. All of my weeks are long weeks. Plowing through a haze of medication is an improvement over plowing through a haze of pain, but in a sick … Continue reading

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happiness

I have a pet peeve, and it is internet philosophy. I’m sure you’ve seen those articles with “5 things you didn’t know about successful people” or “10 quick tips to a better life” or “The real secret to happiness” and … Continue reading

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