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Monthly Archives: June 2014
what is real
“…what this looks like is a bunch of pings and dings and myofascial issues causing your symptoms…” I felt my eyes starting to well up. I was perched on a chair, in considerable pain, in this new specialist’s exam room, this new … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, appearance, chronic pain, depression, doubt, fear, rage, specialist
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steamroller
I’ve surrendered. Officially. Fate has worn me down, and I have conceded. I’ve finally realized I cannot hold the tsunami back any longer, and so I have just parked it and let it come. But as I look up at … Continue reading
this time it will be different (really, I promise)
The nerve is growing back. There’s no denying it. There is a reactivated trigger point near where my collar bone joins my first rib that has dutifully responded to manipulations by both my physical and massage therapists in every session in the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged coping, disability, guilt, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain
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team of one
My impressive run of cookie successes has been broken by the deceptively simple bar cookie. Two batches have had to be thrown out, and a third seems destined for a similar fate. The center remains in a near raw-cookie-dough state, despite being baked for double the prescribed … Continue reading
stress and release
So, two days from now, in my enduring quest to discover all of the things in my body that don’t work right, I will undergo a post-exercise-stress blood panel. Over the last few years, I’ve gotten a lot of blood work done in … Continue reading
planted and stunted
Why are so many of the other chronic pain/health challenges blogs I read so happy and positive all the time? It’s highly suspect. I cannot believe those people wake up every morning full of gratitude and spiritual peace. Those things are … Continue reading
waves
My family has been vacationing at the seashore for a couple of weeks in late summer for as long as I can remember. When I was a little girl, perhaps eight or nine years old, my favorite thing to do … Continue reading
house-hunting
I was speaking to a friend on the phone a couple of days ago. She also has physical issues that require pain medication, and every two or three weeks or so, she’ll swallow a handful of pills, drink a lot … Continue reading
in the dirt
I hate you. And you. And you, and you, and you, and everyone else with better coping skills than me. I know my challenges aren’t unique. But I hate people spouting sunshine in spite of their problems, being so damn happy … Continue reading