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Category Archives: Setting 1
safe
I did not realize it until I was in my early forties, but I do not enjoy fireworks. There is nothing about the experience that is pleasant to me in any way. While others may delight in the celebratory aspect … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, autism, fear
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gulled
unsplash-logoRyoji Iwata When people talk about autism, they talk about developmental milestones, cognitive- versus non-cognitive impairments, low and high functioning, language and social deficits. Specifically in regards to Asperger’s, the lion’s share tends to be social challenges, executive function, and … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, gullible, manipulation
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fun
I am not spontaneous. I cannot pack a bag and fly off to Europe tomorrow, or up and go to the beach on an hour’s notice. I do not impulsively engage in crazy activities with my pals that turn into … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Asperger, autism, coping, fun, spontaneity, vacation
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supposed
I have run out of energy. Again. Just like I did this time last year when they changed my schedule and switched my days off. Except – I don’t have that excuse this time. But I called out of work … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Asperger, Aspergers, autism, chronic pain, disability, doubt, futility
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this is why
OK, I’ll admit, I was one of those liberals that didn’t get the Trump thing. While I might not have been as addicted to the daily outrage flung up the flagpole by the media as some, I entertained a lingering, … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, desperation, media, misinformation, money, politics
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response and able
“Hey, by the way, Lewaltzia (not her real name) left the gas on in here, so you should stay out for a few minutes while the room vents.” I said, poking my head out of the recently vacated operating room … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, autism, futility, work
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don’t drink the water
About a month ago, I became very sick Friday night after work and remained so up until the following Monday. I discovered that a smattering of other people in my department also had severe bouts of nausea for a day … Continue reading
do your work
This is the new cover for the binders with daily, weekly, and monthly maintenance tasks in my department at work. There’s one for each job description, four total, and this meme is on the front of all of them. I … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, appearance, Aspergers, autism, fairness, good intentions
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actress
I am an actress. Ever since I was a little girl, I have imitated other people. Like a mirror, I could reflect was what was seen and spoken to me. I mimicked words I heard and actions I witnessed. To … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, animals, Asperger, Aspergers, autism, work
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effortless
“Do you think maybe the reason people don’t respond to you is how you talk to them?” I’m doing a really good job of controlling myself right now. I’m sitting with one of my supervisors (my department has two of … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, autism, doubt, good intentions
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