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Monthly Archives: July 2014
questions
Miss EmilyAnnaB, one of my favorite bloggers, recently sent me a parcel of nice questions to answer, about things that have nothing to do with my shoulder. Those answers will be forthcoming later this week. I like being given questions I can … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, chronic pain, good intentions, humor, orthopedist, physical therapy
3 Comments
cohabitation
I have a roommate. Not the four-legged, furry kind (“freeloader” would better suit those, as dear as they may be), but a real human. My best and oldest friend is in town visiting for the weekend, and is even now asleep in the bedroom. … Continue reading
mind vs. truth
It’s 7:30 AM and I do not want to be awake. I’ve been up since around 5:15 (5:12, to be exact), and while I did manage to doze fitfully until 6:45, the sharp stabbing under my right shoulder only permitted … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged chronic pain, doubt, healing, insomnia, nerve ablation, orthopedist
1 Comment
the beginning of the end
“What about under here? Did they give you a cortisone shot back here, under the scapula?” My right shoulder throbbed, sending slicing pains up into my neck. My arm was bent down and backwards in such away as to expose … Continue reading
blues before and after (part 2)
Instead of talking about what the new specialist did yesterday afternoon, I’d rather talk about what he didn’t do. He didn’t talk down to me. He didn’t brush my symptoms aside. He didn’t see “nothing remarkable,” about my shoulder. He … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, chronic pain, coping, depression, doubt, hope, insomnia, orthopedist, specialist
1 Comment
blues before and after (part 1)
I see a new doctor today. But any hopes I might have had about the tendon damage as a possible avenue for recovery were consummately dashed by my physical therapist this morning. She read the MRI report and said it … Continue reading
chastened
I woke up at 5 AM this morning and everything hurt. My shoulders, my back, my legs, my neck, everything. I have one gel wrap that stays in the freezer and another I warm in the microwave. I decided to … Continue reading
patiens emptor
Back in October, I saw an orthopedist for pain in my shoulder that was radiating up into my neck. He diagnosed a pinched nerve in my cervical spine. He ordered an MRI of my cervical spine. It did not show enough … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged #YesAllWomen, anger, chronic pain, doubt, effort, massage therapy, nerve ablation, physical therapy, specialist
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the MRI
The MRI report for my rotator cuff and scapula came in the mail yesterday. I’d asked for a copy to be sent to me as well as to my doctor. I put off opening it until after dinner. I had … Continue reading
never gonna get it
As I parked my car at the gym this morning, I saw a woman who had already pulled in to the handicap space next to mine. She had a permanent handicap hang tag (they’re blue; mine is red) suspended from … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, appearance, depression, disability, doubt, life change, nerve ablation, specialist
2 Comments