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Monthly Archives: May 2014
time, space, and state of being
Time as we understand it is a linear, stepwise progression; measurable, dependable, irreversible. But there are physicists who will tell you that this is an illusion imposed by our own minds, which are incapable of conceiving anything beyond a progressive, … Continue reading
consequences
Actions have consequences. We may forget it sometimes and act as though our personal bubble is a closed system. But while we often behave as though we are little universes unto ourselves, most of us live in close enough proximity to other … Continue reading
relative importance
Yesterday, I did a whole bunch of things I shouldn’t do with my right arm, including moving some furniture. I can’t support anything for any length of time, but I was able to coax out bursts of strength that enable … Continue reading
unexpectations
So I wanted a field trip, and now I am on one. The drive was predictably bad. I took a full twenty minutes for my first break, but only fifteen for the second, and the third and fourth were less than … Continue reading
fate vs. faith
I started a blog post yesterday and walked away from it after the third paragraph. It was a post about the fact that I will probably never bear children of my own. Of course this is upsetting. Few women run up … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged chronic pain, doubt, faith, fear, hope, life change, loneliness
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tribute to Momma Ape
I’ve mentioned her a few times in this blog, so regulars know that Momma Ape has been struggling with a host of pain and mobility issues since I was a teenaged ape. But I wanted to take this Mother’s Day … Continue reading
more information, and less
This past week, I was given some new information. Life is generally reliable that way. If you’re not sure what you should do about something, chances are you don’t have all of the information yet, and if you hang around and wait, … Continue reading
impossibilities, and the glory of the mundane
At the end of each physical therapy session, I get ice and electric stimulation on my shoulder. I lie on my back on one of the tables with my knees bent and my head propped up, and they have posters … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, disability, luck, media, misinformation, physical therapy
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the not-so merry-go-round
It’s been such a long week. I don’t know why I keep saying that. All of my weeks are long weeks. Plowing through a haze of medication is an improvement over plowing through a haze of pain, but in a sick … Continue reading
I hate oprah
A large stack of glossy, colorful magazines sits by the chairs in the waiting area for my physical therapist’s office. It’s comprised largely of Oprah magazines. I stare at them twice a week. The colors change, but everything else looks the … Continue reading