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Tag Archives: life change
doing the right thing
I know as soon as I say “book club,” the regular readers will be expecting a tirade about inanity and ignorance, or better yet, a new and even stranger suggestion from this week’s butterfly gauntlet. But as much as I hate … Continue reading
aspects
My regular readers may have noticed a new categorization in the side bar, called Aspects. This is because I feel as though I’ve entered a new phase in this experience, and it seemed important to make some sort of acknowledgement … Continue reading
done and next
Another visit to the pain management doctor. Another handful of prescriptions, after another diagnostic scan that showed nothing. Nothing. I received a detailed MRI, called an arthrogram, of the entire underside of my scapula and surrounding tissues, and it revealed precisely … Continue reading
bitten
Well, we’re on day four here at the beach and my busted wing has finally settled back down to its pre-trip pain level; a four or five in the morning, up to a six or seven by the evening, depending … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged appearance, coping, disability, life change, self loathing, self love
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wherever you go
I, and my pain, are now at the beach. Momma Ape and I drove separately from the rest of the family yesterday, leaving an hour and a half early so we could could take a few long breaks and still all … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged chronic pain, coping, depression, life change, self loathing
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chastened
I woke up at 5 AM this morning and everything hurt. My shoulders, my back, my legs, my neck, everything. I have one gel wrap that stays in the freezer and another I warm in the microwave. I decided to … Continue reading
never gonna get it
As I parked my car at the gym this morning, I saw a woman who had already pulled in to the handicap space next to mine. She had a permanent handicap hang tag (they’re blue; mine is red) suspended from … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, appearance, depression, disability, doubt, life change, nerve ablation, specialist
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steamroller
I’ve surrendered. Officially. Fate has worn me down, and I have conceded. I’ve finally realized I cannot hold the tsunami back any longer, and so I have just parked it and let it come. But as I look up at … Continue reading
this time it will be different (really, I promise)
The nerve is growing back. There’s no denying it. There is a reactivated trigger point near where my collar bone joins my first rib that has dutifully responded to manipulations by both my physical and massage therapists in every session in the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged coping, disability, guilt, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain
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waves
My family has been vacationing at the seashore for a couple of weeks in late summer for as long as I can remember. When I was a little girl, perhaps eight or nine years old, my favorite thing to do … Continue reading