Tag Archives: doubt

unsettling

Posted on January 3, 2015 by C. M. Condo

I’m officially, completely unpacked. All boxes have been emptied, everything I’ve decided to keep has found a home, either here or in my storage unit, pictures are hung, and box cutters, tape, markers and tool kits are finally put away. … Continue reading →

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big and small

Posted on December 5, 2014 by C. M. Condo

The pain is back. Nerve ablation or no nerve ablation, my discomfort is driving hard in the wrong direction. Notwithstanding the blank spot covering the inside half of my shoulder blade, the entire rest of the area is sore and inflamed, … Continue reading →

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the door

Posted on November 28, 2014 by C. M. Condo

This past weekend, I received an e-mail from the rock star researcher who has been heavily recruiting me for his extremely prestigious – and formidable – lab. He suggested I attend a talk by one of his grad students concerning a … Continue reading →

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incertainty

Posted on November 7, 2014 by C. M. Condo

That used to be me, I thought. It was as though I was speaking of some time of my life long since gone, like childhood, not the “me” that I was up until late last year. The jogger passed me … Continue reading →

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orphaned

Posted on October 17, 2014 by C. M. Condo

So according to my therapist, I am still angry, I am still fighting giving up my autonomy, and I need to redefine the God in which I believe, since the one that I used to believe in doesn’t jibe with … Continue reading →

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limited

Posted on October 10, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I had forgotten how exhausting it is to function through pain. In particular, I had forgotten how mental exhaustion begets physical exhaustion. After this week, consider me reminded. It has been six weeks since the semester began. The first two … Continue reading →

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beware of dog

Posted on September 19, 2014 by C. M. Condo

“If I had a dollar for every person who suggested acupuncture to me, I wouldn’t have to work,” I hissed, as soon as the young woman had walked far enough up the driveway to be out of earshot. “Girl, you … Continue reading →

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depress

Posted on September 5, 2014 by C. M. Condo

depress |diˈpres| verb [ with obj. ] (1) make (someone) feel utterly dispirited or dejected: that first day at school depressed me. (2) reduce the level or strength of activity in (something, esp. an economic or biological system): fear of inflation … Continue reading →

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stasis

Posted on August 11, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I woke up this morning with the same pain I went to bed with last night. Yesterday, after a couple of hours on the beach, it was so bad that all I could do was lie on the recliner in the condo with … Continue reading →

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mind vs. truth

Posted on July 21, 2014 by C. M. Condo

It’s 7:30 AM and I do not want to be awake. I’ve been up since around 5:15 (5:12, to be exact), and while I did manage to doze fitfully until 6:45, the sharp stabbing under my right shoulder only permitted … Continue reading →

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