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Tag Archives: disability
never gonna get it
As I parked my car at the gym this morning, I saw a woman who had already pulled in to the handicap space next to mine. She had a permanent handicap hang tag (they’re blue; mine is red) suspended from … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, appearance, depression, disability, doubt, life change, nerve ablation, specialist
2 Comments
steamroller
I’ve surrendered. Officially. Fate has worn me down, and I have conceded. I’ve finally realized I cannot hold the tsunami back any longer, and so I have just parked it and let it come. But as I look up at … Continue reading
this time it will be different (really, I promise)
The nerve is growing back. There’s no denying it. There is a reactivated trigger point near where my collar bone joins my first rib that has dutifully responded to manipulations by both my physical and massage therapists in every session in the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged coping, disability, guilt, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain
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team of one
My impressive run of cookie successes has been broken by the deceptively simple bar cookie. Two batches have had to be thrown out, and a third seems destined for a similar fate. The center remains in a near raw-cookie-dough state, despite being baked for double the prescribed … Continue reading
planted and stunted
Why are so many of the other chronic pain/health challenges blogs I read so happy and positive all the time? It’s highly suspect. I cannot believe those people wake up every morning full of gratitude and spiritual peace. Those things are … Continue reading
house-hunting
I was speaking to a friend on the phone a couple of days ago. She also has physical issues that require pain medication, and every two or three weeks or so, she’ll swallow a handful of pills, drink a lot … Continue reading
in the dirt
I hate you. And you. And you, and you, and you, and everyone else with better coping skills than me. I know my challenges aren’t unique. But I hate people spouting sunshine in spite of their problems, being so damn happy … Continue reading
time, space, and state of being
Time as we understand it is a linear, stepwise progression; measurable, dependable, irreversible. But there are physicists who will tell you that this is an illusion imposed by our own minds, which are incapable of conceiving anything beyond a progressive, … Continue reading
unexpectations
So I wanted a field trip, and now I am on one. The drive was predictably bad. I took a full twenty minutes for my first break, but only fifteen for the second, and the third and fourth were less than … Continue reading
more information, and less
This past week, I was given some new information. Life is generally reliable that way. If you’re not sure what you should do about something, chances are you don’t have all of the information yet, and if you hang around and wait, … Continue reading