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Tag Archives: disability
says who
Saturday morning, I went to the drugstore to pick up a refill for one of my pain medications, only to discover that there weren’t any refills left on it. This particular medication is the linchpin of the chemical arrangement that … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged disability, fear, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain, orthopedist
1 Comment
limited
I had forgotten how exhausting it is to function through pain. In particular, I had forgotten how mental exhaustion begets physical exhaustion. After this week, consider me reminded. It has been six weeks since the semester began. The first two … Continue reading
waking up
“It’s called… village, or something like that. I know they have one near you. Here, I’ll find it.” My tireless, life-changing-injury mentor picked up her smartphone and started searching. “Here it is; there’s one right in the community center.” She … Continue reading
fine
“Have you tried hypnosis?” I’m so used to the way I am now, wearing the brace, walking slowly to maintain my posture, using a special cushion to support my back, that I had forgotten that most people only see the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect II
Tagged anger, chronic pain, disability, friend, good intentions, misinformation
6 Comments
bitten
Well, we’re on day four here at the beach and my busted wing has finally settled back down to its pre-trip pain level; a four or five in the morning, up to a six or seven by the evening, depending … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged appearance, coping, disability, life change, self loathing, self love
1 Comment
never gonna get it
As I parked my car at the gym this morning, I saw a woman who had already pulled in to the handicap space next to mine. She had a permanent handicap hang tag (they’re blue; mine is red) suspended from … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, appearance, depression, disability, doubt, life change, nerve ablation, specialist
2 Comments
steamroller
I’ve surrendered. Officially. Fate has worn me down, and I have conceded. I’ve finally realized I cannot hold the tsunami back any longer, and so I have just parked it and let it come. But as I look up at … Continue reading
this time it will be different (really, I promise)
The nerve is growing back. There’s no denying it. There is a reactivated trigger point near where my collar bone joins my first rib that has dutifully responded to manipulations by both my physical and massage therapists in every session in the … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged coping, disability, guilt, inner monologue, life change, nerve pain
3 Comments
team of one
My impressive run of cookie successes has been broken by the deceptively simple bar cookie. Two batches have had to be thrown out, and a third seems destined for a similar fate. The center remains in a near raw-cookie-dough state, despite being baked for double the prescribed … Continue reading
planted and stunted
Why are so many of the other chronic pain/health challenges blogs I read so happy and positive all the time? It’s highly suspect. I cannot believe those people wake up every morning full of gratitude and spiritual peace. Those things are … Continue reading