Tag Archives: anger

autism? doesn’t matter. again.

Posted on March 13, 2025 by C. M. Condo

Some people just don’t get it, and autistics are forced to accommodate them–instead of the other way around I’ve been transferred to a different veterinary facility while waiting for the new doctor’s hiring to be completed at my home clinic. … Continue reading →

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done-ing

Posted on February 14, 2022 by C. M. Condo

*this post contains profanity I’m doing trauma work with my therapist, starting with an event in my childhood that I’d only recently started calling a trauma, even though I remember it clear as day despite it having occurred when I … Continue reading →

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committed

Posted on September 24, 2020 by C. M. Condo

So the latest hand-wringing over smartphones is that they remove the need for people to memorize things when using the GPS function for directions; that people don’t actually see and commit to memory their surroundings any more. And by people, … Continue reading →

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what doesn’t kill me (isn’t going to work)

Posted on May 14, 2020 by C. M. Condo

Surprising no one, my first application for disability was denied. In researching next steps for an appeal, I discovered that one of the things the committee considers, although not in so many words, is whether my disability will kill me. … Continue reading →

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just for looks

Posted on February 15, 2020 by C. M. Condo

I have been undergoing the arduous and humiliating process of applying for disability here in the U.S. for my autism. If you thought that in this day and age, there would be an established mechanism for this type of disability, … Continue reading →

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closed

Posted on April 11, 2019 by C. M. Condo

Filip Kominik Don’t expect people to remember you have autism or realize what it entails. Most people, even those you might consider colleagues or professionals who received an advanced education in an area like psychology or social work, will have … Continue reading →

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not so small

Posted on January 22, 2017 by C. M. Condo

“Trace the exact path of your pain for me.” I sit on a padded exam table facing the neurologist, having passed the slew of tests to determine if the pain and numbness in my hands is due to something in … Continue reading →

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not my fault

Posted on May 18, 2015 by C. M. Condo

As I read more and more about my autism (for new folks, I was recently diagnosed with Asperger’s, an Autism Spectrum Disorder or ASD), I am, for the first time in my life, seeing my life experiences clearly. All of … Continue reading →

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apprehend

Posted on April 12, 2015 by C. M. Condo

apprehension |ˌapriˈhenSHən| noun 1 anxiety or fear that something bad or unpleasant will happen: he felt sick with apprehension | she had some apprehensions about the filming. 2 understanding; grasp: the pure apprehension of the work of art. 3 the … Continue reading →

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and for how long

Posted on April 10, 2015 by C. M. Condo

The pain is no better. I won’t say that it is worse. It may be, but I don’t want to go there. At the behest of my physical therapist, I contacted the head researcher of my lab to let him … Continue reading →

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