Tag Archives: anger

and for how long

The pain is no better. I won’t say that it is worse. It may be, but I don’t want to go there. At the behest of my physical therapist, I contacted the head researcher of my lab to let him … Continue reading

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come to rest

Even before this happened, I was a reluctant inhabitant of my physical body. I railed against its inevitable (if as yet largely imperceptible) decline, the stealthy, inexorable loss of elasticity, pigment, resilience, strength. It felt like punishment, to house a … Continue reading

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not done

It hasn’t been a good week. The tidal surge of adrenaline borne out of the pure joy at being released from constant, immobilizing pain has receded. I have come back down to earth to find my shoulder still heavily damaged and disturbingly weak. … Continue reading

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orphaned

So according to my therapist, I am still angry, I am still fighting giving up my autonomy, and I need to redefine the God in which I believe, since the one that I used to believe in doesn’t jibe with … Continue reading

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limited

I had forgotten how exhausting it is to function through pain. In particular, I had forgotten how mental exhaustion begets physical exhaustion. After this week, consider me reminded. It has been six weeks since the semester began. The first two … Continue reading

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waking up

“It’s called… village, or something like that. I know they have one near you. Here, I’ll find it.” My tireless, life-changing-injury mentor picked up her smartphone and started searching. “Here it is; there’s one right in the community center.” She … Continue reading

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beware of dog

“If I had a dollar for every person who suggested acupuncture to me, I wouldn’t have to work,” I hissed, as soon as the young woman had walked far enough up the driveway to be out of earshot. “Girl, you … Continue reading

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fine

“Have you tried hypnosis?” I’m so used to the way I am now, wearing the brace, walking slowly to maintain my posture, using a special cushion to support my back, that I had forgotten that most people only see the … Continue reading

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open letter to god

Hey there, it’s me, your favorite kicking can T.G. Ape. I know you know what’s going on with me down here, so there’s probably no point in a recap. Suffice it to say that it’s been pretty crappy, for a … Continue reading

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closing in

Almost, but not quite. That’s what this week has been. A series of discoveries that things that I thought were OK are still not right. Things I thought had been fixed were still broken. A personal life that I thought … Continue reading

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