Category Archives: Aspect I

March 2014 – August 2014

nothing I do

I’m not supposed to be thinking about things I can’t do. I’m not supposed to wallow. It’s not good for me. I want to do the right thing. I want someone to tell me what that right thing is, and … Continue reading

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something wrong

You don’t belong here. That’s what keeps running through my head, around and around, rattling noisily like an old toy train on a short track. You’re not really disabled. Your injury isn’t that big of a deal. There’s nothing biochemically … Continue reading

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just a girl

So, obviously, I’m going to have to go back and look for another doctor.  Again. And in light of recent events, not to mention historical ones, this time, I’m going to choose a female. Before I get going on this … Continue reading

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what is real

“…what this looks like is a bunch of pings and dings and myofascial issues causing your symptoms…” I felt my eyes starting to well up.  I was perched on a chair, in considerable pain, in this new specialist’s exam room, this new … Continue reading

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steamroller

I’ve surrendered. Officially. Fate has worn me down, and I have conceded. I’ve finally realized I cannot hold the tsunami back any longer, and so I have just parked it and let it come. But as I look up at … Continue reading

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this time it will be different (really, I promise)

The nerve is growing back. There’s no denying it. There is a reactivated trigger point near where my collar bone joins my first rib that has dutifully responded to manipulations by both my physical and massage therapists in every session in the … Continue reading

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team of one

My impressive run of cookie successes has been broken by the deceptively simple bar cookie. Two batches have had to be thrown out, and a third seems destined for a similar fate.  The center remains in a near raw-cookie-dough state, despite being baked for double the prescribed … Continue reading

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stress and release

So, two days from now, in my enduring quest to discover all of the things in my body that don’t work right, I will undergo a post-exercise-stress blood panel. Over the last few years, I’ve gotten a lot of blood work done in … Continue reading

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planted and stunted

Why are so many of the other chronic pain/health challenges blogs I read so happy and positive all the time?  It’s highly suspect. I cannot believe those people wake up every morning full of gratitude and spiritual peace. Those things are … Continue reading

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waves

My family has been vacationing at the seashore for a couple of weeks in late summer for as long as I can remember.  When I was a little girl, perhaps eight or nine years old, my favorite thing to do … Continue reading

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