Tag Archives: fear

house-hunting

Posted on June 8, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I was speaking to a friend on the phone a couple of days ago. She also has physical issues that require pain medication, and every two or three weeks or so, she’ll swallow a handful of pills, drink a lot … Continue reading →

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fate vs. faith

Posted on May 12, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I started a blog post yesterday and walked away from it after the third paragraph. It was a post about the fact that I will probably never bear children of my own. Of course this is upsetting. Few women run up … Continue reading →

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reach out

Posted on April 24, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I hate this. I hate this undecorated life and frail body. I hate that when I try to explain to my friends what has happened to me they stare at me uncomprehending, uncertain of what the right thing is to … Continue reading →

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hope

Posted on April 6, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Hope is everywhere. If we gave it form and substance it would stifle us, there is so much of it. It blooms in every conversation I have about my condition. The nerve ablation has created an entire morass of it, … Continue reading →

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quiet

Posted on April 3, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I awoke this afternoon from a midday nap to total quiet. It was the kind of quiet that is so empty, you can hear the high-pitched, whispered whine that your ears register when nothing louder than air bends the hairs in … Continue reading →

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ablate, ablated, ablation

Posted on April 3, 2014 by C. M. Condo

ablation |əˈblāSHən|  noun.  The removal of material from the surface of an object by vaporization, chipping, or other erosive processes. In medicine, the surgical removal of body tissue. Today, I am going in for a nerve ablation. Interestingly, despite what … Continue reading →

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first post

Posted on March 31, 2014 by C. M. Condo

On the morning of October 21, 2013, I woke up with so much pain in my neck and right shoulder that I could not turn my head.  A sharp, pulsating, burning menace had overtaken the entire upper right quadrant of … Continue reading →

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