Tag Archives: fear

can’t and don’t

Posted on April 3, 2015 by C. M. Condo

I’m not going to sugarcoat it for you. It is what everyone says it is. If you want to know how to maintain a work-life balance, I have to tell you, it’s impossible. What I would say is you should … Continue reading →

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emotional

Posted on March 17, 2015 by C. M. Condo

“Bachelor of Arts or Sciences?” “Sciences.” “How tall are you?” “5’3”.” The man frowned at me. “You look taller than that.” “Really?” My posture has improved, but it seems unlikely I’ve gotten a whole inch out of it. (Or do … Continue reading →

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happening

Posted on January 12, 2015 by C. M. Condo

My surgery is scheduled for four days from now. I spent my spare post-holiday hours drilling down on the research, gathering what few common factors I could glean from the various case studies. I brought my resulting bevy of questions in for … Continue reading →

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big and small

Posted on December 5, 2014 by C. M. Condo

The pain is back. Nerve ablation or no nerve ablation, my discomfort is driving hard in the wrong direction. Notwithstanding the blank spot covering the inside half of my shoulder blade, the entire rest of the area is sore and inflamed, … Continue reading →

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says who

Posted on October 31, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Saturday morning, I went to the drugstore to pick up a refill for one of my pain medications, only to discover that there weren’t any refills left on it. This particular medication is the linchpin of the chemical arrangement that … Continue reading →

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doing the right thing

Posted on September 12, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I know as soon as I say “book club,” the regular readers will be expecting a tirade about inanity and ignorance, or better yet, a new and even stranger suggestion from this week’s butterfly gauntlet. But as much as I hate … Continue reading →

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blues before and after (part 1)

Posted on July 16, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I see a new doctor today. But any hopes I might have had about the tendon damage as a possible avenue for recovery were consummately dashed by my physical therapist this morning. She read the MRI report and said it … Continue reading →

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chastened

Posted on July 13, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I woke up at 5 AM this morning and everything hurt. My shoulders, my back, my legs, my neck, everything. I have one gel wrap that stays in the freezer and another I warm in the microwave. I decided to … Continue reading →

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what is real

Posted on June 30, 2014 by C. M. Condo

“…what this looks like is a bunch of pings and dings and myofascial issues causing your symptoms…” I felt my eyes starting to well up.  I was perched on a chair, in considerable pain, in this new specialist’s exam room, this new … Continue reading →

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planted and stunted

Posted on June 15, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Why are so many of the other chronic pain/health challenges blogs I read so happy and positive all the time?  It’s highly suspect. I cannot believe those people wake up every morning full of gratitude and spiritual peace. Those things are … Continue reading →

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