Tag Archives: doubt

blues before and after (part 2)

Posted on July 17, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Instead of talking about what the new specialist did yesterday afternoon, I’d rather talk about what he didn’t do. He didn’t talk down to me. He didn’t brush my symptoms aside. He didn’t see “nothing remarkable,” about my shoulder. He … Continue reading →

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patiens emptor

Posted on July 11, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Back in October, I saw an orthopedist for pain in my shoulder that was radiating up into my neck. He diagnosed a pinched nerve in my cervical spine. He ordered an MRI of my cervical spine. It did not show enough … Continue reading →

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never gonna get it

Posted on July 8, 2014 by C. M. Condo

As I parked my car at the gym this morning, I saw a woman who had already pulled in to the handicap space next to mine. She had a permanent handicap hang tag (they’re blue; mine is red) suspended from … Continue reading →

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nothing I do

Posted on July 4, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I’m not supposed to be thinking about things I can’t do. I’m not supposed to wallow. It’s not good for me. I want to do the right thing. I want someone to tell me what that right thing is, and … Continue reading →

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something wrong

Posted on July 3, 2014 by C. M. Condo

You don’t belong here. That’s what keeps running through my head, around and around, rattling noisily like an old toy train on a short track. You’re not really disabled. Your injury isn’t that big of a deal. There’s nothing biochemically … Continue reading →

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what is real

Posted on June 30, 2014 by C. M. Condo

“…what this looks like is a bunch of pings and dings and myofascial issues causing your symptoms…” I felt my eyes starting to well up.  I was perched on a chair, in considerable pain, in this new specialist’s exam room, this new … Continue reading →

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stress and release

Posted on June 16, 2014 by C. M. Condo

So, two days from now, in my enduring quest to discover all of the things in my body that don’t work right, I will undergo a post-exercise-stress blood panel. Over the last few years, I’ve gotten a lot of blood work done in … Continue reading →

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fate vs. faith

Posted on May 12, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I started a blog post yesterday and walked away from it after the third paragraph. It was a post about the fact that I will probably never bear children of my own. Of course this is upsetting. Few women run up … Continue reading →

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tribute to Momma Ape

Posted on May 11, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I’ve mentioned her a few times in this blog, so regulars know that Momma Ape has been struggling with a host of pain and mobility issues since I was a teenaged ape. But I wanted to take this Mother’s Day … Continue reading →

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more information, and less

Posted on May 9, 2014 by C. M. Condo

This past week, I was given some new information. Life is generally reliable that way. If you’re not sure what you should do about something, chances are you don’t have all of the information yet, and if you hang around and wait, … Continue reading →

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