Tag Archives: chronic pain

mind vs. truth

Posted on July 21, 2014 by C. M. Condo

It’s 7:30 AM and I do not want to be awake. I’ve been up since around 5:15 (5:12, to be exact), and while I did manage to doze fitfully until 6:45, the sharp stabbing under my right shoulder only permitted … Continue reading →

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blues before and after (part 2)

Posted on July 17, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Instead of talking about what the new specialist did yesterday afternoon, I’d rather talk about what he didn’t do. He didn’t talk down to me. He didn’t brush my symptoms aside. He didn’t see “nothing remarkable,” about my shoulder. He … Continue reading →

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blues before and after (part 1)

Posted on July 16, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I see a new doctor today. But any hopes I might have had about the tendon damage as a possible avenue for recovery were consummately dashed by my physical therapist this morning. She read the MRI report and said it … Continue reading →

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patiens emptor

Posted on July 11, 2014 by C. M. Condo

Back in October, I saw an orthopedist for pain in my shoulder that was radiating up into my neck. He diagnosed a pinched nerve in my cervical spine. He ordered an MRI of my cervical spine. It did not show enough … Continue reading →

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the MRI

Posted on July 11, 2014 by C. M. Condo

The MRI report for my rotator cuff and scapula came in the mail yesterday.  I’d asked for a copy to be sent to me as well as to my doctor. I put off opening it until after dinner.  I had … Continue reading →

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nothing I do

Posted on July 4, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I’m not supposed to be thinking about things I can’t do. I’m not supposed to wallow. It’s not good for me. I want to do the right thing. I want someone to tell me what that right thing is, and … Continue reading →

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something wrong

Posted on July 3, 2014 by C. M. Condo

You don’t belong here. That’s what keeps running through my head, around and around, rattling noisily like an old toy train on a short track. You’re not really disabled. Your injury isn’t that big of a deal. There’s nothing biochemically … Continue reading →

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what is real

Posted on June 30, 2014 by C. M. Condo

“…what this looks like is a bunch of pings and dings and myofascial issues causing your symptoms…” I felt my eyes starting to well up.  I was perched on a chair, in considerable pain, in this new specialist’s exam room, this new … Continue reading →

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in the dirt

Posted on June 3, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I hate you. And you. And you, and you, and you, and everyone else with better coping skills than me. I know my challenges aren’t unique. But I hate people spouting sunshine in spite of their problems, being so damn happy … Continue reading →

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fate vs. faith

Posted on May 12, 2014 by C. M. Condo

I started a blog post yesterday and walked away from it after the third paragraph. It was a post about the fact that I will probably never bear children of my own. Of course this is upsetting. Few women run up … Continue reading →

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