Tag Archives: autistic

the trouble with [autistic] tone

Posted on November 10, 2025 by C. M. Condo

Tone of voice is the one piece of neurotypical communication that autistics can’t duplicate. We overact trying to mimic it, but we only know if it worked based on someone’s reaction. We can barely hear it in others, and never in ourselves. For me, an autistic woman, it is the most difficult apart of my disguise. Continue reading →

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Is it autism fatigue… or something else?

Posted on June 14, 2025 by C. M. Condo

Precious few believed me when I said my body wasn’t right, that I wasn’t supposed to be like this. Doctors blamed it on my medications, my hormones, vitamins, diet, my pillow, exercising, not exercising, all couched with the suspicion that I was exaggerating or making it up. What’s worse is on some level, I believed them. Continue reading →

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laziness, autism version

Posted on February 12, 2025 by C. M. Condo

A popular news magazine just published an article on child psychopathy and what is being done to treat it. Studies had revealed differences in these children’s brain development as young as three or four years old. As I was a … Continue reading →

Posted in Aspect IV | Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Aspergers, autism, autistic, disability, masking, mental-health, neurodiversity, self-doubt | 1 Comment

Aspergers-like

Posted on January 4, 2025 by C. M. Condo

This is not far off from those ridiculous lists of jobs that people on the spectrum should be good at, based on stereotypical tendencies. Such tendencies are just trimmings of our autism and do not give any idea what an autistic’s life is really like. Inevitably, the people who make these lists are not autistic. Continue reading →

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doctors, autism, anxiety & assumptions

Posted on December 26, 2024 by C. M. Condo

The word “autism” never crossed the doctor’s lips. He didn’t even argue about it; he just acted as if it didn’t exist. Continue reading →

Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 4 | Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Aspergers, assumption, autism, autistic, doubt, fatigue, medication, mental-health, neurodiversity | 3 Comments

restraint

Posted on May 23, 2024 by C. M. Condo

Autistic people are experts on what is good for them personally. What is needed, however, is not necessarily what non-autistics would expect. But when I do not have enough spoons to deal with another human, I am way past the point of having enough to explain why. Continue reading →

Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 4 | Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, autism, autistic, autisticburnout, burnout, coping, disability, exhaustion, mental-health, neurodiversity, overwhelmed, sensory, solitude | 2 Comments

Musk-rat

Posted on May 16, 2021 by C. M. Condo

“the last thing the autism community needs another example of a white male autistic who fits the vanishingly rare stereotype of the super-genius misanthrope” Continue reading →

Posted in Setting 3 | Tagged ableism, actuallyautistic, autistic, Elon Musk, invisible disability, stereotype | 4 Comments

get past

Posted on April 30, 2021 by C. M. Condo

Fear is what makes you careful. Fear is what keeps you from being alone with strange men, from going on a hike out of cell range without telling anyone, from buying LSD from a bartender you just met. What kind of fear is this woman talking about? Fear of not being able to pay your rent? Continue reading →

Posted in Setting 4 | Tagged autistic, fear, life hack, women | 1 Comment

special victim

Posted on March 3, 2021 by C. M. Condo

“So instead I just go on and on about a single episode in a series with literally hundreds of them because that single episode explains my entire life story and sometimes you just need someone or something to blame. For the years and years of abuse, infantilizing, minimizing, belittlement, and disbelief that have carved psychological scars in me that are so deep I might never be able to fully heal from them.” Continue reading →

Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 4 | Tagged actuallyautistic, autistic, autisticwomen, disability, media, neurodivergent, real autism, stereotype | 3 Comments

the real reason

Posted on February 11, 2021 by C. M. Condo

So after reading yet another article about how the “wellness” (cough, puke) industry uses unregulated and non-factual claims to sell products to unsuspecting women while managing to completely ignore the reason women are searching for such things, followed by me writing fuming paragraphs in my head despite watching kittens play quasi-football, I figured perhaps I should write a blog post. Continue reading →

Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 4 | Tagged ableism, actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, autistic, autistic woman | 3 Comments