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Category Archives: Setting 1
safe
I did not realize it until I was in my early forties, but I do not enjoy fireworks. There is nothing about the experience that is pleasant to me in any way. While others may delight in the celebratory aspect … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, anxiety, ASD, Asperger, autism, fear
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gulled
unsplash-logoRyoji Iwata When people talk about autism, they talk about developmental milestones, cognitive- versus non-cognitive impairments, low and high functioning, language and social deficits. Specifically in regards to Asperger’s, the lion’s share tends to be social challenges, executive function, and … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, gullible, manipulation
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fun
I am not spontaneous. I cannot pack a bag and fly off to Europe tomorrow, or up and go to the beach on an hour’s notice. I do not impulsively engage in crazy activities with my pals that turn into … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Asperger, autism, coping, fun, spontaneity, vacation
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supposed
I have run out of energy. Again. Just like I did this time last year when they changed my schedule and switched my days off. Except – I don’t have that excuse this time. But I called out of work … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Asperger, Aspergers, autism, chronic pain, disability, doubt, futility
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actress
No-one has any idea whatsoever that I am a faker, a sham, a walking performance piece entitled “Socially Habituated Human.” Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, animals, ASD, Asperger, autism, life change, masking, work
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effortless
“Do you think maybe the reason people don’t respond to you is how you talk to them?” I’m doing a really good job of controlling myself right now. I’m sitting with one of my supervisors (my department has two of … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, autism, doubt, good intentions
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where god is
I have suddenly realized that somehow, somewhere, over the last however so many months, I have lost my faith. I used to center it in the altruism of humankind, the ability of my fellow creatures to reach outside themselves and … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, faith, god, hope, personal crisis
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book two – mind
It seems that fate has deemed that I did not get a thorough enough education in invisible disability from my chronic pain. Since that has been reduced to the category of problematic, rather than life-altering, a new demon has arisen … Continue reading
Posted in Book Two - Mind, Setting 1
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Aspergers, autism
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