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Category Archives: Aspect I
the not-so merry-go-round
It’s been such a long week. I don’t know why I keep saying that. All of my weeks are long weeks. Plowing through a haze of medication is an improvement over plowing through a haze of pain, but in a sick … Continue reading
I hate oprah
A large stack of glossy, colorful magazines sits by the chairs in the waiting area for my physical therapist’s office. It’s comprised largely of Oprah magazines. I stare at them twice a week. The colors change, but everything else looks the … Continue reading
off-putting and putting off
Don’t ask me how I’m doing. I don’t want to talk about how I’m doing. How I’m doing is too complicated to lend itself to brief, polite conversation. It’s been my experience that an acquaintance (oh look, “quaint” is in … Continue reading
happiness
I have a pet peeve, and it is internet philosophy. I’m sure you’ve seen those articles with “5 things you didn’t know about successful people” or “10 quick tips to a better life” or “The real secret to happiness” and … Continue reading
Posted in Aspect I
Tagged anger, chronic pain, effort, healing, luck, media, misinformation, nerve ablation
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arranged
Pain and soreness this morning are way up from my usual, and as usual, I don’t know why. I was already on a downward trajectory by Wednesday, but despite taking it easy at physical therapy on Thursday and not having class … Continue reading
reach out
I hate this. I hate this undecorated life and frail body. I hate that when I try to explain to my friends what has happened to me they stare at me uncomprehending, uncertain of what the right thing is to … Continue reading
the end of the beginning
Lately, I’ve found myself slipping more and more often into that nasty little place where everything is annoying and everyone is a moron. People can be so thoughtless, and my tolerance for it, normally rather generous, has been burned down … Continue reading
upon closer examination
I’m still not used to the new order of things around here. Last night I erroneously told a friend I’d be able to meet her for coffee this morning before I make the half-hour drive to my parents’ house for … Continue reading
Three Things Not To Say To People With Chronic Health Problems (And What You Can Say Instead)
It’s been a tough week in the ape preserve, I know, so as we close in on a holiday weekend, I thought I would lighten things up with a bit of chronic pain comedy. Three Things Not To Say to … Continue reading
fixed
First, I have a lot less pain today. A full day of rest and chair avoidance has presumably been good for me. Second, I am not fixed. fix |fiks| verb [ with obj. ] fixes, fixing, fixed. (1) to mend or repair, … Continue reading