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Category Archives: Book One – Body
autism? doesn’t matter. again.
Some people just don’t get it, and autistics are forced to accommodate them–instead of the other way around I’ve been transferred to a different veterinary facility while waiting for the new doctor’s hiring to be completed at my home clinic. … Continue reading
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Tagged actuallyautistic, anger, ASD, autism, career, disability, doubt, job, work
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My new book is now available on Amazon!
this great ape – essays on autism by a late-diagnosed autistic woman Click here to see on Amazon.com (USA)
Posted in Aspect IV
Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Asperger's, Aspergers, autism, autistic woman, late diagnosed
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laziness, autism version
A popular news magazine just published an article on child psychopathy and what is being done to treat it. Studies had revealed differences in these children’s brain development as young as three or four years old. As I was a … Continue reading
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Tagged actuallyautistic, ASD, Aspergers, autism, autistic, disability, masking, mental-health, neurodiversity, self-doubt
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one and all
You can’t just remake the world via relabeling. Not that people don’t try. Firing a bunch of people is “downsizing” or, I read somewhere, “restructuring,” a euphemisticky euphemism that means nothing because it could mean anything. Continue reading
the real thing
“It doesn’t matter that they aren’t real; I don’t have a built-in remove that kicks in automatically in non-literal situations. It’s all real. All of it.” Continue reading
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Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, communicate, compensate, masking, social
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The Last 5 Days, or How Not Treat an Autistic
For the last two months, my search for a pain professional who accepted Medicaid and was willing to work with my autism medication regimen had resulted in my being disbelieved, belittled, insulted, and dismissed by uncaring and uninterested neurotypicals at every turn. Continue reading
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Tagged actuallyautistic, Aspergers, autism, autistic woman, being autistic, chronic pain, health care, masking, neurotypical, surgery
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autism and depression
Phenomenal post about how Aspies interface with depression in unique ways: People with Aspergers syndrome may experience depression differently
Book One
This marks the end of Book One and the beginning of Book Two. To read Book One in its entirety from the beginning, click here.
dare I think
Hey TGA, why haven’t you posted about your pain lately? Indeed, why haven’t I? It’s not like I don’t still have it. But it’s crossed a line, now, into that previously elusive territory known as “manageable.” Of course, I’m wary of … Continue reading
scars
They don’t match. That was my first thought as I sat on the edge of MS Ape’s bathroom sink, my back to my reflection, peering into a make-up mirror to compare the barely-knitted slices on my left scapula to the … Continue reading